IT"S VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!! YAY!!!! My baby bought me the most beutimus boque of lilies. I love him soooooo much and then my mommy bought me GODIVA!!! The GOD of all CHOCOLATE!!!! Yum Yum Yum. I made it to state along with everybody else in my band that did solo and ensamble. It's going to be fun If they want then I'm hoping that Rhanda Kris and megs will all room with me because that would be the pimpist thing ever and that would make this state trip the best in the world. Such fond memories. heheh ok bye

Dont you of all people even begin to tell me what to do. What Kristal and I talk about is our business. We talked about what I wrote this morning and we're over it. she understands what I was feeling. So I don't need you to tell me how to act towards my friends. And I'm pretty sure that if Kristal had a problem with it she would tell me. Because thats what normal people. Fuck off evrone just leave me the hell alone. Oh yeah and once again if you really were the real you you wouldn't care what people said and you wouldn't have to try to be the real you. The real you comes naturally and you don't hold it back. It'll click one day. maybe.

Kris dont be like that. You have kids. If you did all that stuff you would be letting them down so much. YOu had a fucked up childhood from what you tell me. Don't put your children through that. Change the cycle. They say time repeats itself. Don't let it. YOu have the power to stop history in its tracks an change it for the better. Besides that would be the most selfish thing you could ever do and I don't think I would forgive you. (Not that it would matter but you'll come back to this world in a next life and I'll make sure our paths cross and THEN I'll never forgive you. Ok so maybe I will but I'll still call you stupid.) Plus with all the rotten luck me and you have the whole killing thing would probably end up botched and youd just be paralysed with the ability to put together full and complete thoughts and know what was going on around you and now way to comunicate to the rest of us. Peace babe.
P.S. If you kill your self whos going to become the next fifi hitler? lol I love ya babe but cut your this shit out ok? That probably pissed you off but you can tell me about it later ok?

the fox is your true demon form.you are smart and
sexy,you do grab a lot of attentions!you are
generous and people likes you.you know well how
to deal with different situations too.^^


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the fox is your true demon form.you are smart and
sexy,you do grab a lot of attentions!you are
generous and people likes you.you know well how
to deal with different situations too.^^


What is your true demon form?girls only(with anime pics)
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Alright you are the pure fairy this means that you
are a person who loves to have friends dn't
like to be alone very,very friendly and you are
basically an angel you have a pure heart and
don't like to treat people bad you are known to
be very beautiful.


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I'm very sad right now. I was just informede that * sniff* the little fishy I got Cameron; aka Pokey, has just passed away. Services will be held tomorrow afternoon followed by a brief memorial and then som home made cookies. That is all but I will leave you with a message for Pokey. Pokey: You always made me laugh. even when you were just chillin in your bowl. I'm sorry Cameron's house was so cold. Maybe things would have turned out differntly if you would of stayed with me, but whats done is done and I feel no remorse towards anyone. And Cameron: Don't be upset baby boy, he was your fisrt fish after all. Love to all and may GOD rest Pokey's little fishy soul. There will always be a little fishy shaped place you you in my heart Pokey and I'll never forget you. You were the best fish ever. Quiet, cleaan, didn't eat as much as other piggy fishes. And you were geogeus. I couldn't of asked for a better fish. Love to all Me

You are blue!


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I don't know why you people have a live journal if you're never going to update it. I mean how boring can you be? Any-who my baby suprised me tonight by getting off work early and coming to Robotics. It was the best feeling in the world. I love him soooooooo much. Peace out homie-G's. Love always, Sam

Grrrr!!!

I'm going to New Mexico for Thanksgiving. Another pain filled week with the parents. The only goog thing is that I get to see my little Emma and Hannah. God I love them sooooo much. But then that means that I am away form my baby boy. I love him sooo much and I just don't think he understands how much he really means to me. I wish I had someone to talk to. Like an invisible friend that could give me an opinion. Someone to listen to me when I talk and not critcise what I am feeling but actually listen to me and help me work out this labrynth (sp?) I call my emotional life. I don't know what to think any more. I can't wait to move to Georgia in June but I am also terrified of the meer thought of it. I'm I'll be on my own. The things I need to do to get to the place and the life I want to have all seem so overwelming. It makes me freak out and start to OCD on everything. I wish I had money. Not alot but just enough to get me through med school and to pay for my living expenses. That would be nice. I know that I am not moving by myself. I am taking my baby boy with me but he's a country boy and he's very grown up in some ways but he's still very sheltered and I'll have to look after him when we get there. Who knows? It could all work out perfectly in the end. We could get married and I could have his children and my high life style and my rehab center. I would love for that to all work out the way I want it to. But only God knows what my life is really ment for. I love my baby boy so much and I just can't wait to get out of this god forsaken state called Texas. I've lived in ALOT of places in my life but never in a place that was so centered around drama and bitch and fuck the world all I care about is me and my big hair. Sorry I had to get that out there. But wait, I'm really not sorry so what am I appologizing for? Thats how I feel and I am intitled to my own personal feelings so I retract my apology. And I will restate my opinion. I HATE THIS FUCKING, MOODY, ASSHOLE FILLED, STAB YOU IN THE BACK, DRAMA CENTERED STATE!!! There, I've said it and if that pisses you off well tough shit. More than half of you dumbasses have never even left this hell hole and you don't even know what the real world is like so you can't bitch at me for being "stuck up" and you guys can't say that I think I am better than everyone. I am the same as everyone else. I am just more aquanted with the real world. Anywhere else in this country people could care less about what you have to say about what that girl is wearing or if so in so is going out with whats his name. Say for instance you're gay. Texas: OMG whatever will we do about that faggot? THE REST OF THE WORLD: good for you and we'll go on with our lives now. News Flash: Nobody gives a shit about you and your fucking life. Boo fucking hoo if he doesnt like you. Yeah we're sorry for you and all that jazz but get the fuck over it. It's a really big world if you haven't noticed. Move on I am almost possitive that there is someone bigger and better out there that will have you. Htanks for listening to me bitch. Sam

SO i was supposed to stay at kris' tonight but by the time i went over there the poor little dear was already alseep and i didnt have the heart to wake her up at like 11:45. Plus I didn't want to risk waking up the chitlens!! Bless her little heart. I went over to Camerons and me and his mom made him and his dad watch the last little bit of The Wizard of Oz and then we watched Liar Liar because I had never seen it. GOt on the Tiffany & Co. website and found some awsome rings and quite a few pearl/diamond combos that I really really liked but i can't really afford anything at this point and time. But then that would be the up side to me becoming a doctor wouldn't it? I'll get to buy myself and my baby whatever our little hearts desire. like that $1,100 ring that i found and just fell in love with. You guys should go check it out and tell me what you think of it. Wow. I just reliezed that absolutly nobody reads my journal. How depressing. But at least i have a quiet place to spill my thoughts when I get in my artistic moods and dont feel like talking to anybody. Sweetness. Well homie g's I'm going to go to bed and I'll see you all manyana. TTFN Love Sam

Oh yeah the website that nobody will eve go look at but i'll put it on here anyway on the off chance that somebody does decide to read my lj and check it out. just copy and aste it into you address bar thingy.

http://www.tiffany.com/shopping/item.aspx?CategoryID=451&category=Diamonds&c_id=WEB1&c_it=66I2&start_id=1&

ok so alot of shit has been going on lately and most of it revloves around jacey. I love her to death i really do but i'm worried about her. Shes still hung up on her x abusive boyfriend and now shes intersted in one of my best friends bro which is just wierd. Jacey I love you but it's time to pull your head out of your ass and start taking resposbility for you actions. Kris is not your babysitter and if you can trust yourself to do the right thing then maybe you shouldn't be doing it in the first place. You have to screw up in life. thats how we learn and by learning we in turn live, and not just live but live better because we have learned from our mistakes. It's time to grow up, get over your shitty passed life and get back out in the world. I'm telling you this because I love you and I'm tired of watching you put yourself through hell. Get over. Move on. Don't be afraid of happiness anymore. Whats done is done and it all happens for a reason. Believe it or not there is a reason for everything. Trust me. Look at the hell ive been through and ive turned out alright. Better that alright id say. To be a bit concited id say I turned out pretty damn good. I love you babe just remember that. ANd if you ever need a metephoric slap in the face you know i will always be straight up and honest with you. I luv ya man i luv ya. you silly head.